When I Said No.

When I said no, I was scared. I didn’t realized that there would still be frustration.

When I said no, they talked about me. It was subtle but I knew it was there. The tones, the words, the little jabs.

When I said no, I was exhausted. But I was also empowered, it was the first time I did what I thought I couldn’t do.

When I said no, God gave me my army. My fighter husband, my friends. They made a metaphorical circle around me for protection. They uplifted me, and made me laugh through my anger.

When I said no, it was hard. Every part of me hurt. My past self was crying to come back. To cave. But I held strong.

When I said no, God said “breathe my child, and let me take care of you” and I relaxed in His presence.

After years of being the main attraction for narcissistic people. I finally said no to one. I did it, and so can you.

20 year old me is cheering from the sidelines.

To god by the Glory. Kyrie Eleison. It’s good to be back my friends.